My Boy behind the blog...meet Rayce!

1. What celebrity would play you in a movie about your life? Tom Hardy...cause he's a bad motherswearword ahem...man crush?

2. What is your dream car? Oh that's a hard one. I would take an Acura NSX or a BMW M3 or a Toyota Supra

 

 

3. Do you have any tattoos? What, where, why? Nope. Not yet.
4. Boxers or briefs?
Boxers
5. List 3 random facts about yourself...
I love cinnamon bun oatmeal I love going to the gym The sound of some bikes and cars gives me goosebumps  

Weigh in Wednesday

So it's been a hot minute since I've linked up for Weigh in Wednesday. Still no change in weight. Surprise...not.

I think I mentioned last time that I wasn't going to weigh myself until July 15...yeah about that. I did. A lot. Whoops.

Rayce and I are doing a clean eating challenge. It's not really a competition or anything but we said whoever cheats has to do the dishes for a week. We started Monday and we're going strong! Our "rules" are: no sweets (desserts), no fast food (we very rarely get fast food anyway), water, orange juice, Gatorade, and milk only. We figured out how many calories we want to eat a day (around 2300 for me) and where those calories need to come from. I'm shooting for 140g protein, 46g fat, and 356g carbs. I feel like it's going to be a pain in the ass making sure I get my calories from certain places but it needs to be done!

I made these quinoa turkey burgers tonight and they were disgusting.

But...they were only disgusting because there was a shit ton of cumin in them. Turns out...cumin is fugging nasty. Won't make that mistake again! They would be good without it.

Loving snacking on fresh fruit!

And veggies! I threw some green beans, broccoli, and squash with olive oil and Nature's Seasoning in the oven for 45 minutes and they are delish! So easy to take to work for part of a healthy lunch!

Exercise has been going really well lately, too. Tonight (I'm writing this on Tuesday night) I ran almost 2 miles at a faster pace than I had been running. I've been doing high intensity every other day(ish) and jogging on the other days. For my high intensity I put the treadmill on like 8.5 and sprint for 30 seconds then rest 30 seconds. I do this for 10-20 minutes depending on how I'm feeling.

Social anxiety

I've recently (with the help of a friend) self diagnosed myself with social anxiety. Seriously. While hanging out with a friend Friay night, somehow it was brought up that he has social anxiety, which I never knew. He takes medicine for it and says it doesn't affect (effect?) him anymore.

 

Now I've never had anything major like panic attacks or anything like that. But when I am in a crowd (think weddings, parties, bars, etc.) I am almost always just very very uncomfortable and nervous. Depending who I'm with of course. I'm just always thinking "that person is looking at me...why are they looking at me" or "omg I haven't talked to that person in years...should I go say hi? What do I talk about? What if it's uncomfortable and I start sweating?" or "Ok, Rayce is talking cars again, what do I do? Ok I'll just stand here silently for awhile" or "I should really go say hi to so and so but I don't know what to say"

According to Mayoclinic:
(I have all but one of these!)
Emotional and behavioral social anxiety disorder signs and symptoms include:

• Intense fear of interacting with strangers
• Fear of situations in which you may be judged
• Worrying about embarrassing or humiliating yourself
• Fear that others will notice that you look anxious
• Anxiety that disrupts your daily routine, work, school or other activities
• Avoiding doing things or speaking to people out of fear of embarrassment
• Avoiding situations where you might be the center of attention
• Difficulty making eye contact
• Difficulty talking

 

Seriously I'm a mess. It's stupid. And annoying. I honestly never thought about social anxiety before. I also will sometimes just be sitting doing nothing and all of a sudden feel a really strong sudden surge of nerves, for no reason. I explained all this to my friend and he was like "that's social anxiety" and I was like "Holy shit, I have social anxiety."

 

Now I'm seriously considering getting medication for it. I don't feel anxiety daily. I wouldn't need it when I go to work and stuff...just when I'm going to be in a social situation with lots of people. I don't know.

 

Thoughts?